getting the best of me

its so hard not to lie.

i want to.

its the easy thing to do. but those that i love and care for need the truth, they deserve it.

but its scary, i dont get how i lived/live such a normal childhood and life but i lie. how its so easy?

is there something that i am surpressing that makes lying the "best" thing for me?

i lie knowing ill get caught, i lie knowing ill hurt someone, i lie for everything.

i havent lied in a week. maybe a small exagertaion? maybe but nothing huge. i am trying.

i am.